Friday, 1st November, 2024.

Dear whoever's reading this,

Sometimes, sometimes I want to end it all. Just give me a large amount of sleeping pills and let me sleep till the end of time, y'know. Other times, something in me just wants something, something even worse than that.

But then...what could be even worse than death? A question that left me longing for an answer. But no matter how much I try to find the answer, it just seems...impossible. Well because it is...atleast to the ones who will still be alive!

But then...do I really want to die? Or am I just trying to find an exit, a way out of this misery? Well no matter what the answer is, I can't just do that "dirty business" now.

Despite living with shitty people I have to call "a family", I'm actually close to other people who are just so down to earth that it'd be a crime to not call them "MY family". I have a mummy, a few big sisters, 2 wives in a lovely polycule and one in the mentioned polycule with another, a daughter and most importantly, the one I could never thank enough, "K" (for a personal reason I will be calling them "K"). They're the one who grabbed me out of my depression, they're the one I'd die for cause to me that's the best "thankyou" one could do for a person like that.

So I have to work tomorrow and I'm not mentally stable enough to go to work but...I can't just be absent cause I could very well be fired soon so this page ends here <3

Cya